Perhaps a little deeper look is in order. If you don't care feel free to leave.
Ok, now that we have rid ourselves of the prurient and the what I call the professionally curious, we can move on.
I am descended from predominately Scottish and Scot-Irish roots, with a big dollop of Welsh and French Huguenot, Dutch, German, and Scandinavian tossed in making me a mongrel I guess. Big themes in my family generationally were education, music, spirituality, and what I call a very creative bent. On my maternal side and on both sides going backward I am descended from the Celtic people known mostly for their creativity and spirituality. Celtic people were and remain from predominately two strains...Military aristocracy and agrarian. My ancestors were both.
I embody strong opinions but also tolerant, simple but complex, compassionate and kind but prone to not brook petty bullshit and egocentricity. Narcissists like Donald Trump make me itch...perhaps itch to slap the fuck out of them, but for my peace-loving nature...but don't push me.
I am highly educated and that sometimes is a drawback because being an intellectual I can be a bit non-pragmatic and I have had to learn to balance my penchant for being a visionary with the practical facts before me...needing to look for practical solutions instead of dreamy-eyed optimism.
I am an optimist by nature but the trick is to not let that become unrealistically predominant.
As I said music is a force in my family. Everybody going back many generations (as far as 3400bc) has been musical. Instrumental and vocal, and some like me also compose.
Writing is the true breath of life to me, but music is a close second and I am versatile in both the instrumental and vocal realms.
My mother was a true artist and someone I have always aspired to be more like...but again it can be a bit difficult to have as many interests as I am used to having. I am insatiably curious by nature and that is also something I share with all of the ancestors I know anything about. (A lot and books have been written about many of them, including two U.S. Presidents and several military heroes).
One of the least important aspects of this critter called ME is the fact that I am non-heterosexual, homosexual if you will, gay if you must, and while I DETEST being labeled much of anything ever...it is useful to describe onself in such a way as to point out the uniqueness rather than the mundane. Yes, I am married although it has been a troubled marriage and often unhappy but my husband and I have been together almost 5 years....I should say married for that long for we have been together far longer than that. I guess I am not straight curious but maybe married curious. I will not surprise me if Joey and I are together forever NOR will it surprise me if we are not and I am lucky enough to find TRUE LOVE with another. I have been with some incredible guys, stunning to look at and versatile in talents and character...but nothing has lasted forever for me for which I am not happy.
My best attributes I guess if asked would be my brain, my skillsets in being able to see things from all angles and fairly quickly see resolutions to what others see as only problems. I would not be truthful if I did not make mention of my sense of humor. Wicked, wild, often immature, very often inappropriate...I LOVE to make people laugh...and the more raucous the better.
In short, I am not a simple person to understand but then again is anyone?
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